maRtiN’s cUbicLE: The Chronicles of “Being Grown Up” and “Growing Up”…

with no important things occurred to me in this holiday to jot down here, guess i’ll write bout my conversation with kucing waktu itu… mmmmm… bingung mo mulai dari mana… banyak yg bisa ditulis n gw bingung gimana nulisnya nih… ummm… well, we mainly talked about future… it’s kinda strange talking bout future… cuz biasanya kita ngomongin bout the past, with all its gud ol’ times instead of the bleak future… hahaha… but yeah, we did talk bout future that night…

it was mostly bout MY future… it scares the hell outta my ass… i kinda not sure of what will i be in the future… i mean, with my academic life now at SMU, surely i’ll at least be someone working at commerce n business… yet, there are lots of ways to define businessman… u can be a successful businessman owning several companies with huge proportions of shares, but in a same time u may not be a happy person living in a happy family… n that’s precisely what freaks me out…

at first i just want to be rich… i wanna own huge numbers of shares in several big companies, sit back n relax, enjoying all that i’ll get… but then, facing reality, i realized that there is always a steep hard way for everyone to get there… n that way will surely eats me up, both time n energy… and when u are on that way will u have to sacrifice ur quality time, maybe for urself or even quality time with ur family…

sempet juga gw mikir, "am i on the right way?"… "is the life i’m living right now meant to be my way of life?"… cuz jujur aja gw sangsi ama my future as a businessman… sometimes gw takut… hahaa… well, u know, everything can happen in a business context… even ppl sometimes dare to do the most evil thing to win over their rivals in business… u might say "cemen lo tin", but i’m sure those businessmen had had that kind of feeling deep within their thoughts…

What i’m trying to say is that there are other professions as good as businessman in life, n am i right to set my future as a businessman…? Take this real life example… gw kenal seorang dokter… dia dokter spesialis pencernaan gtuw dhe… dulu dia operasi gw pas gw kena radang usus buntu… n this man is really a rich, happy, n dedicated man… yah lo tau lah dokter spesialis gtuw skali operasi aj dapet brapa duit… udha gtuw dokter ini tuh berhati baek (ceilah bahasanya)… tapi beneran dhe… he likes to help the needy ones… even katanya ada yg ga mampu gtu operasi, dibayarin biaya operasinya ama dia n malah dikasi bantuan duit segala… lo bayangin aj tuh udha tajir, baek pula… heaven welcomes him with arms wide open…! hahaha… n that’s precisely what i call "living life to the fullest, being happy in ur life n sow good deeds for ur afterlife"

yah bgitulah… u might think "halah, sok mikir kejauhan lo tin… skarang aj masi semester 1… pikirin kuliah dulu sono…!" but then it comes back as one big thing which is connected to each other… i mean, what i’m doing now will surely affects what i’ll be in the future… n satu lagi yg gw masi ga abis pikir… WHY DID I PICK SMU? hahaha… beneran deh… klo sampe2 tuh anak2 yg pada ngambil college di US bisa transfer ke UC Berkeley gtu… gw salib kebalik tuh anak2… awas aj… ahahaha…