maRtiN’s cUbicLE: The Chronicles of “Being Grown Up” and “Growing Up”…

those are muggers… hahaha… smu peeps…

lib lvl3, view from corner… get some zombies mugging over there… hahaha…

orang udha stress blajar… ended up playing ddr di laptop… hahaha…

begh… this one has his zombie mode still "ON"… hahaha…

yang satu ini lagi merenungi nasib… menatap jendela ke arah SOA, hoping to see a girl in the gsr… hahaha…

anyhow… i don’t feel like studying tonight… so sick of it after days of studying financial accounting… just this noon i sat for 15 mins with biz law book right after my eyes n straight away i felt bored to hell… hohoho… i had this thought in my head that says, "hey, this is just another tests of ur life… so why bother?" hahaha… actually it’s somehow true in a way… i mean, it’s just another (for me) 2 tests, in which they are of no match with those 3 weeks full of suffering in IB tests back in May… hahaha… that’s true! i remember those sleepless nights of catching up with math hl… (well that’s kinda overstated) hahaha… yes i SUCK at math… damn… anyway, so i started to say to myself, "dude, take it easy… it’s just another exams of ur life… u’ve been through tougher ones, n ur life won’t ends just because ur GPA doesn’t reach 3.5!"

so yeah… i sat here n i do indeed study, but i DON’T mug… haha… sorry, I’M NOT A MUGGER… huhuhu… i won’t mug to death for just another 3 hours of exams… hahaha… i’d rather sit back, n study when i want to… hohoho… so then, here i am… feeling bored after minutes of studying biz law n starting to jot down things on blog… hohoho…

these recent days were full of pressure… not just exams… the fact that i hadn’t yet found a place to stay on dec onwards added on to the exams pressure… well finally i found a place just today n decided to take it… a room in apt in sophia… shared with vito… $550 per person per month including EVERYTHING… hahaha… good… so at least one problem is settled… hahaha… kmaren2 bingung banget pas blom nemu… ampe pusing ga konsen blajar gw… hahaha…

saking pusingnya kmaren2 tuh ampe gw ngerasa gw tuh bener2 blom cocok jadi anak kuliahan… hahaha… call me childish… call me immature… but yea i am… i mean, i’m only 17 yrs old… n i’m so sick of all these things… some say i’m mature n i can think maturely, but hey… i’m just a kid after all… i shudn’t be here at the first place… i shud still be in the final year of high school… enjoying the time of my life while worrying of IB exams… hahaha… i really miss that feeling… a feeling of freedom restrained by obligation to pass th IB exams, added on with the uncertainty of which uni i’ll enroll, sweetened by real friendship, crush n love… hahaha… beneran d… saking enegnya gw with this life i’m in, kmaren2 gw ampe bikin playlist iTunes entitled "teenage riot! where’s my teenage days…!" yg isinya lagu2 dari "grow up" nya simple plan ampe "what’s my age again" nya blink… hahaha…

last night i was screwed… last minute preparations for LTB final presentation this morning… we didn’t even have a proper rehearsal and some of us even see the presentation’s videos for the first time during the actual presentation itself… but then it went well n smooth… if only the given time for the presentation was 25mins instead of 20… definitely we’ll do much better… hohoho… anyway it’s good to have that over with… that’s because that presentation was my last heavy graded assignment for this term… so now i got nothing to do except for mugging n probably do the tort of negligence problem given by the biz law prof…

it obviously feels great to have finished LTB… as in finally i’m free from that time-consuming module… yet there’s a certain degree of reluctance in me that LTB is now over… now that i have to say goodbye to all those good times i had with my teammates… this LTB team was special n different than my other team, i must say… that’s because we were assigned to this team from the very first week of this term and we face all the challenges together throughout our project… memorable moments of joy, failure, success, doubt, humor, frustration, sadness n happiness that we all experienced… it really meant something to me… hohoho… time really flies… i just looked through all my LTB email folders in my school email account n recalling those memories back from the early days… the days when we were still like a bunch of strangers gather around… ahahaha… from those email of our very first meeting up to last night’s rushing preparation… hohoho… can’t imagine that now is week 13 already n that we have beaten CSP… all in all, thanks to my team… u guys are awesome… i really treasure every moment spent with u all…

then… well still relates to the biz law thingy, i was a bit upset by one of my teammate… this guy sucks ass… i wish i would never ever ever ever be in the same group with him again… better still, wish i won’t have any same class with him… nih anak tuh ye… hhhhh… it’s not that he practically didn’t do anything in the group… i’m okay with that since things may get worse if he did… haha… sorry that sounds lofty, but that’s reality… yang ngeselin tuh… he talks nonsense… ngasi comment muter2 ngga jelas… udha gitu asal ngomong, kaga relate ke topiknya… klo ngomong ngga jelas… intinya sok tau dhe! capek tawu g… diem aj deh lo…! glad that the assignment is over… fyuhh…

anyway, moving on… umm… i -again- found one living example that SAT is of no use… hahaha… i know this one philippines guy… his SAT is like 2130… but then his biz law mid-term is C… hahahhahaa…! mo ngakak gw… huahaha… nih anak juga… klo ngomong tuh ye… kesannya pinter banget… hahaha… ampe kaget gw waktu dia ngomong dapet C… huahaha… emang, it’s true that u can’t judge a book by its cover… but this guy, the cover is like damn good…! hahahaha… tampangnya tuh bener2 tampang anak pinter pengen ditonjok… huahhahaa… duhduhduh… jadi gila kan gw… ahahaha… i sound like lofty again… but then, u really shud see this guy n the way he speaks n response to questions… woah… so knowledgeable! ahaha… manusia emang… hahaha…

then… oya, recently i chatted with some ppl whom i haven’t chat for like ages… dari fefe yg jarang ol but kmaren tiba2 ol pagi2… manda yg udha ga ada kabar… ampe yudoy gundul guobluoy yg tiba2 juga online nih malem… hahaha… kocak dhe… hahaha… kangen banget ama anak2… ama ph juga… hohoho… last night i was just finishing this biz law thingy when i flashed through pictures in my laptop… liatin tuh foto2 diiringi some lullabies… duhduh… kangen saya… huhuhu…

flashing my thoughts back to those joyful weekends was so…… indescribable… ahaha… masa2 sma… damn i shudn’t be here at the first place… aarghh… if only gw ngga masuk tk staon lebi cepet… ahaha… weekend dulu tuh sbenernya not that "wow" sih, but still they were somehow special in unique ways… there were even times when we just sat around below the flagpole in front of the dorm… talking bout past present n future under the starry sky… or there were also times when we swam n did stupid things… perang aer di kolam renang gitu lah… ngadu tahan napas dalem aer… hauhahaha… i still have the picts and the recordings by now… ahaha… or times when rame2 nebeng balik weekend ke rumah nanang ato hendy… moreover that time when there were only two of us staying at the dorm… those are memorable… much much more memorable than my now so-called weekend… hhhhh…

moving on… ummm… school… yea at least biz law n comms presentation were finished already… still got many many more to do actually… next big thing is biz law written assignment… hoah… malas saya… oya, next term’s schedule is out… n guess what? i am preassigned up to 5 credit units… n what’s worse, those are 6 classes in total awaits… Biz Gov n Society, Creative Thinking, Analytical Skill, Technology n World Change, Intro Econs, Stats B… huaaaaa… 3 of em are morning class…! duhduhduh… i thought next term will be more relaxing… yet, i guess i was wrong… ahaha…

it’s kinda funny how things going… i mean, i work my ass off with my teammates for today’s biz law presentation… ended up like so-so… felt like stupid… worsen by prof’s announcement that our class’ biz law mid-term exam ranging from A to D… got the premonition that i’ll be one of the Cs or even worse, the Ds… that day before the exam i already felt like failing this one… but then ended up i got B… not so bad… haha… taking into account that this one is the killer subject named biz law… haha… but still, i need to study damn hard for the remaining ones…