maRtiN’s cUbicLE: The Chronicles of “Being Grown Up” and “Growing Up”…

Fuhhh… hari2 yang melelahkan… gw capek nieh gini twuss… seminggu lagi gw SAT blom ada belajar, EE blom kelar, WL Indo blom kelar, TOK essay juga, pusing nieh… hhhh…. cape2…!! Mana niey weekend gw sendirian lagi… why do PPL hav to go when i need em so badly???

Masalah yang kmaren blom selese juga… instead, it splits up into two ppl. Yang satu sih kayanya membaik… paling cuma butuh waktu buat set things right… actually gw regret what i said lately which made her felt like she’s judged, i really don’t mean it… it’s just like an abrupt emotion of a bad day… sorry, my bad…

Tapi yang satunya ngga tau knapa ngediemin gw jugha. Cape gw, perasaan gw ngga ada salah dhe…. ya udha gw diemin balik… dasar lo, sekamar jugha… emang salah gw apaan ama lo?? Emang gw nyalahin lo? Nggak kan..? Asal lo tau aja, yang ada tuh malah nada n cara lo ngomong di telpon last wed nite tuh kesannya kaya lo nyalahin gw… CAPEK GW GINI TRUSS…!!

Hhhh… today we held group4 project in dufan… it’s not fun at all. It was rainy and i’m not feelin good, so… gitu deh… hhh… the project itself worked well anyway… hufff…. dunno wad to write anymore niey… i SHOULD go up and study the SAT… wish that those problems will solve easily nieh…

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Lots of things going on these days… umm.. especially today which makes me sick as hell… dari pagi2 tuh udha kusut capek kurang tidur… trus breakfast buru2 sambil finished up making questions for BM IB Study Case… WHICH ends up ditinggalin ngga diperiksa gitu aja ama pa’Todung… gondok gw..! Mana Metha ngga masuk laghe… untungnya no EL today…

Umm.. lanjut ke next periods… 3 straight periods of Math HL… well it starts up pretty well but end up the other way around. At the end of the class, IA MATH jaman jebot sekelas yang udha dikerjain susah2 ama kita2 dibalikin ama pa’Ngemal gara2 they don’t satisfy one of the grading rubric which is "the use of technology"… padahal waktu dulu dikasi itu IA, pa’Ngemal kaga ngasi tawu grading rubricnya, nor he told us to use technology in doing the IA…. emang bener sih ngga ngubah banyak2, cuma tetep aja kesel kudu nyalin tuh IA berapa halaman… DAMN! Trus ditambah lagi pa’Ngemal announced that we have one more test before the semester break, PLUS one more IA after the break… Hell man!!!!

After skool, i did the "mading" stuff… banyak anak2 cabut dari asrama… ada yang cabut ngerjain TOK (which is fine), ada yang cabut PENTING mampus nonton basket…!! And finally some of us have to cover up with the others’ works. One other thing that makes me really mad is some of the 12graders who don’t even care about the "mading" eventhough they were in dorm. Imagine… when some of us have to do an "overtime" job covering those who LEFT, those ppl easily SLEEP like pigs!! Would you be more SENSITIVE PLEASE..!?!

Haduhhh…. butek niey…. currently i’m so easy to get irritated by people who’s hyperactive, to ppl who don’t sensitive to others, and also to ppl who’s too sensitive to others like backstabbers… damn i HATE those ppl…!!

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Today… get back from the CB Camp @ Via Renata Puncak…. it was FUN. Lots of fun. Well… basically CB Camp is getting better n better each n every year… session periods are decreased. so we won’t get bored :p … ummm… oiya, the place is also getting better… So it’s sad to think that this was the last CB Camp for me n my grades…

Ummm… what else…. oiya, it’s funny to see how my class can be so unite there… it’s also amazing to see how we won the competition (free dress in one particular day we choose.. yuuhuu…) although i had to do a silly stupid disgusting thing that i might think twice if i’m asked to do that again… mwahahaha… but anywy it’s 10 pts and it’s worth it.. haha…

Ummm.. oiya, we also won the talent show stuff.. well, we didn’t really ready for that so it’s a surprise for us. Actually, there’s nothing special from our performance except for our idea that’s different with the others… umm… oiya, one thing that i thought is a misplace is the winner for "originality and creativity" criteria in the talent show. I guess it’s better to put 12.1 with their real creative and original idea of the show rather than 11.2… well anyway, no offense though…

Trusss… umm… oiya i really think that GOD exists throughout this CB Camp.. it’s really proven through many things… one of the things is our talent show. If we use our original idea, i don’t think that we’ll make it… He creates problems in our homeroom n make us change our show in less than 24 hours b4 the camp… IF only we don’t change, as Metha said, our show will be the same with like 4 other shows in terms of songs (dun cha), names (paris, jessica), main idea (reality show and carrier dreams) and other stuff… well… who knows HIS dream?

Other thing is about the bonfire devotion… i really put my thoughts in that. Well, it basically says that "you’ve most likely been hurt by the people you love the most…", "the only place outside heaven where you can be perfectly safe from all of the risks and consequences of love is hell…", and "do you prefer not to love than be hurt…?" hummm… what can i say… well, those three sentences really stuck in my thoughts as there are many examples of those in life such as my cat’s, my friends’, and of course myself.

Huff, basically this is the greatest CB Camp i’ve ever experienced, lots of stuff and energetic worship that rocks the crowd there…. mwahahaha… in other hand, i’ve got really tired n sleepy… zzz_ZZZ_zzz…

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Hhhh… Hari2 terakhir ini penuh dengan masalah. Ngga taw gw knapa…. Kayaknya Tuhan tuh lagi jauh dari gw…

Things was so screwed up. Awalnya udha agak2 lama sih… cuma baru puncaknya tuh skarang. Gw ngga taw mesti ngapain. Semua masalahnya tuh datengnya n manasnya tuh barengan. Knapa ngga ngantri satu2 gt aja… awalnya tuh dari tugas2… if u guys were IB students who take MATH HL but having a "limited brain" like me, u would easily think it’s sucks the same way I thought. IAs, essays, assignments n assessments tuh numpuk jadi satu… blom lagi EE gw yg unfinished… doohhhhh… susahnya hidup…

Other problems… yah… about friendship n stupid thing called ‘moral fiber’ in "The Girl Next Door"movie… they both sumtimes become so damn fucked up as they are these days. Susah yah…. At some points those two seems to never work well n ruin your friendship n love-live… ya ngga dier!!

Truss…. gw juga lagi in bad condition niey… keseringan tidur malem diatas jm stengah2 jadinya I easily feel sleepy n tired. Duhh…. sbenernya yang ini tuh karena schoolworks tadi sih…

Palagi yah… ngga tawu mo nulis palagi… ngga ding, sebenernya banyak banget yg lagi pengen gw tulis… cuman gw ngga tawu gimana kudu nulisnya… takut ntar irritate ppl n too explicit for me to tell my things. Dooohhh…. gw pengen cepet2 nih masalah2 slese… capek gw gini trus… hduh… help me… hooaaa…

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